It’s me (Traci) again! Time to be real with you guys….
Something I’ve really been struggling with for a while now is my future. What kind of career will I have? Did I make the right decision on my degree program in college? Will we have enough money to survive? Will we ever have a home instead of an apartment? Will I achieve my dreams? Will we have a family of our own? How many kids will we have? Will I be a good mother? Will we find a good church family here in El Paso? Questions after questions fill my heart and my mind.
Why does the “Real World” have to be so complicated? I don’t know. I don’t know why I have all these questions and sometimes I wish time would speed up so that I could see the bigger picture. Then, I’m convicted. I have too many selfish desires. I’m reminded of Matthew 6:34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
I know that God has the BEST things in store for me and honestly, I don’t have to always know what is going on or what is going to happen. It is hard to not KNOW. But I know that I have to trust that my God is bigger than my problems. God is bigger than my worries, He is bigger than my fears.
I’ve been doing a new bible study called “Stronger” by Angela Thomas. It is really rocking my world right now. For the past 3 days, I’ve been reminded that God is always there for me and He is never-changing, NOTHING is impossible for God, and that He loves Me. God loves me! He knows my anxious heart, he knows my desires. And nothing is too hard for Him to handle.
I’ve applied for jobs and sent out resumes this week and I just have to trust that God will provide a job for me…in His timing. He has never failed me yet and I am so thankful. He has always provided for me, so why should I even doubt Him now? I have to remember that He is in control and take it one day at a time. Psalm 55:22 “Cast your burden on the Lord and He will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.”
As I a reminded of your power and your greatness, help me to trust that you will provide for my needs. Help me to know that you are stronger than my problems and bigger than my worries. Help me to not be anxious for my future and help me see that Your timing is perfect!